I have always been a very transparent person. Its always on my face when something goes wrong. When m happy, people know it.. when m sad, when something is not going right, all my emotions are just right on my face! People who're close to me get to know all of it.. they're able to make it out in my voice.. it's annoying sometimes, but more than that, it's a blessing to have such people around.. my friends always complaint about me being too transparent with the world, and how it is not good to be this way, how it makes you vulnerable and stuff like that.. it's difficult for me to act diplomatic, yet m trying.
Giving straight answers, describing every situation at length, providing every minute detail about everything that's happened are instances of how i vivid i get. Well, on the other end, its always such a good feeling to be carefree. For people who live on lies, imagine a day where you just have to speak whatever is there in your heart! No lying, no cheating, no playing hide and seek and dirty lil games. Just being yourself. With everyone. Everywhere. Everytime. Living real lives. I don't think there's a better feeling than this! And not just this, your word of mouth, your sayings, whatever you describe or narrate will always be trusted. You will always enjoy the benefit of doubt! :P
I remember when one of my friend met a girl and liked her very much and agreed to get married. This particular thing had to be kept with myself for a while, which was obviously very difficult for a loquacious person like me, but somehow I managed it. The difficult part was to keep it from all the very close mutual friends. These people knew something fishy is happening for sure. When I got a little hint from my friend, to reveal the stuff, it was an alleviation for me. No more hiding and making stories and even if by giving crooked details, the kbc can come to a halt then this is it that I wanted then!
I know it's such a silly stupid thing, but that's how I am. I just can't be that way.
I remember when I was in Xth grade and first day in school after the exams got over was suppose to be the paper distribution ceremony of the half yearly examinations. Most of the class was in tears and melancholy was everywhere. Except for a few students. The irony was, the grief that was seen on every child's face was not of the poor marks but of the reaction that would come from their parents after learning their marks. Me too was one of them. And that burden in my heart was way too much then. Unable to fulfill parents expectations and letting them down, was eating me up, the guilt of it was weighing very heavy on my heart. I came home, told everything to my mom. And I told her of what was I going through. She was upset but made me calm down and helped me realise whats done is done and what I have in my hands which can be controlled. This sigh of relief was the happiest thing in the world. Next day in school, again some more papers and again the same story.. but not for me. Coz I knew what I had to do to make it right while other's were still there, upset about the same and stuck with all of it.
I know, again a silly thing.The beautiful ad given below, is a remarkable example of how it feels like after telling the truth and have a clear conscience all over again.
This is my entry for the Happy hours campaign organized by Indiblogger and this post is dedicated to Kinley.. kitna chain hota hai na sachhai mein.
You too must be having ample number of such examples. Do share. Would love to hear them out!