Read the first part here
“M home.. how are you? How was your day?”
“It was just fine. How was yours?”
“Dinner is ready. Go change. We’ll have it together”
"Hey baby! Just come close and take me in your arms.."
" No.. not now. Please..!! "
"Why not? It's almost a month now, when you've felt me and I've felt you. We've barely touched each other"
"Get away.. I don’t feel like doing it. I'm not in the mood right now"
"What happened? Is anything wrong?”
“No.. not now.. I really need to sleep, I had a hectic day..”
“But I miss you”
"Just get away.. I don't wanna do it.. I just don’t feel that attraction to come close"
They both go to bed. All quiet
“I know something is going on. That is what you do every time and make an excuse and I buy that every time, but not now.. You have to tell me today. What is it that’s bothering you?”
“Nothing.. do not make assumptions on your own. Please”
“I need to know the reason. Reason for your silence. You know very well, where I'm going with this. Answer me. Please”
“What is it that you can’t let me know? Why do you always keep yourself in a shell? Why don’t you open up with me. We've been married for 7 damn years! And you’re still the same. It’s all the same. I thought with time, everything will be fine, but it’s not. You use to be like this, and I have adapted myself to this setting. You being so quiet, you being so hideous.. I can’t take it. You need to gimme an answer to this”
I know what is it.. I know what you’re going through, but I can’t. I don’t know why? But it just doesn't come to me from inside. I don’t feel like doing anything. I know it’s difficult for you.. but, I really am not able to find a solution to this. You've done every possible thing to make me comfortable with you, but the problem is me! I don’t have the energy for anything. I don’t understand what has gone wrong post marriage, but that’s the way it is! Why don’t you leave me? You’ll get anybody who’ll be worthy of you and your eternal love. M sorry for not having answers to your questions. M sorry for not letting you in. My sorry for not being able to give in to you completely!
“What are you thinking? What is it? Tell me”
“Nothing. You always have to crib about everything. Nothing is wrong with me. Everything is normal. I was just tired last night. That’s it. Why you making an issue of out it?”
“You’re doing this again!”
“M not doing anything. Please get back to your work.”
They both leave. With drops of tears in their eyes. Moving ahead on the way where life is taking them and consuming this poison of loneliness every day, which life is offering them, killing them, slowly!
My post for April A to Z challenge 2015.