Friday, 6 November 2015
Tears.. I think they’re any woman’s best friend! Don’t you think? Okay.. not best friends.. but close friends probably.. and of men too, I guess.
Some years back I was a perfect combo of sensitivity and emotional being! I still am.. but then, those years back, it was a deadly combo.. and it really taught me lot. I fell so many times, learned so many things by falling! I used to be an emotional fool.. yes.. I can’t stand anyone in pain.. and was affected by their sufferings way too much, which automatically made me the scapegoat of everything around! I cried and cried and cried! Just a simple thing to nudge and I was in their trap! They pricked me, and touched all the sensitive areas and I was ready to welcome the pain with open arms!
But things changed eventually, when I had good friends and teachers.. May be the impact my teachers is so much that I want to give the same thing to my students. My teachers helped me look through the things, observe beyond what is shown and judge accordingly!
I’m not saying that I have reached perfection in this, but I am much better than how I used to be. Too transparent, too honest, and too gullible and trusted everybody in an iffy! And that is where it started affecting me. Now, I’m good!
But that doesn’t mean, I don’t cry. Of course I cry.. who doesn’t? I cry sometimes watching an emotional movie (last time it happened when I saw Margarita with a Straw, where Kalki’s mother, Revti, dies) and I just couldn’t stop my tears rolling down my cheeks.. oops, sorry for the spoilers who’ve not seen the movie yet.. But yeah.. go ahead and watch it.. It’s a brilliant composition! Period.
Okay and you cry, and you don't find anybody around to hear your whining and crying, you end up crying even more!! Isn't this true? ;) :P
Tears come in my eyes, when something really pricks my heart, when someone says something that I had never thought in my dreams, and when those abrasive words go in my ears, I can’t stand them. How could you even think of saying such stuff? is what comes to my head! Or if I feel I’m being cheated on.. or maybe when I learn truths about people.. when they please on my face, and cook stories behind my back.. I just loathe this thing to the core. Nobody wants sycophants, at least I don’t.. Everybody loves compliments- but genuine ones.. And if you don’t feel it genuinely then don’t give. Simple. Nobody is begging for them. But talking behind one’s back and continuing the hypocrisy.. it pisses me off.. No if’s, no buts then.. If I learn about it, that person stands nowhere in my eyes.. And I don’t even want to keep any link with them!
What else does brings tears to my eyes? I sometimes go to bed crying.. sometimes I think beyond what is required and become sad..
Every tear has a story, and they say one should not go to bed sad or crying.. But if you ask me, it's quite good.. not that you should go to bed crying, but when thoughts encircle your head a bit too much, mantra is to Stop Thinking and Start Sleeping! And it works! Sometimes getting a sleep at night, wakes you up fresh in the morning, forgetting about all the dilemmas you had last night! And there you are, all happy and chirpy!
Sometimes, I think, what if I die one day, all of a sudden, what will happen when I won’t be around, and then I think of the people who love me so much and how much they’re going to miss me and cry on my deathbed and welcome the tears whole heartedly! So technically, I think of my death and start crying myself for myself..!! Well I can't cry then, so I cry now! Heights of stupidity I guess.. I mean who does that?
But I really really dread the day of losing someone close to me.. so no more discussion on it.
Well sometimes it’s good to let your heart out.. it can be via talking or crying.. anything that suits a person, but the frustration inside has to come out, no matter what! Plus, it cleans the eye?! Okay, I know, I’m talking non-sense now.
How about you? Do you cry often? What makes you cry? Or am I the only weirdo who cries that often? Tell me your stories and I’m ready to listen
Day 6 of NoMo
Linking with Friday Reflections